The man I want to be- Post surgery thoughts

My last blog was written before I went in for PCNL surgery ten days ago. I'm glad to report that all is well, and I'm feeling better each day. But I have a confession to make. I had seriously contemplated signing a Do Not Resuscitate order before surgery. I'm glad I didn't.

The procedure involved two separate surgeries.In the time between the first and second surgery, there was an apparent struggle to keep my Oxygen level high enough. The second surgery was delayed for three hours while the staff pumped Oxygen into me. Had I signed the order, who knows what could've happened.

A couple of women friends had voiced their objections to my signing the order. I listened to their arguments, but it wasn't until I heard this song on the radio that I decided not to sign it. The song is by country singer Chris Young, and it's called "The man I want to be". Please read these lyrics. They are spectacular, and fit my situation better than if I had written the song myself. To watch the video, click the title.


The man I want to be by Chris Young


"God, I'm down here on my knees
Cause it's the last place left to fall
Beggin' for another chance
If there's any chance at all
That you might still be listenin'
Lovin' and forgivin' guys like me
I've spent my whole life gettin' it all wrong
And I sure could use your help cause from now on

I wanna be a good man
A do like I should' man
I wanna be the kind of man the mirror likes to see
I wanna be a strong man
And admit that I was wrong, man
God I'm asking you to come change me
into the man I wanna be

If there's anyway for her and me to make another start
Could you see what you could do
To put some love back in her heart
Cuz' it going to take a miracle
After all I've done to really make her see

That I wanna be a stay man
I wanna be a brave man
I wanna be the kind of man that she sees in her dreams
God, I wanna be your man
And I wanna be her man
God, I only hope she still believes
In the man I wanna be

Well, I know this late at night that talk is cheap
But Lord, don't give up on me

I wanna be a givin' man
I wanna really start livin' man
God, I'm asking you to come change me
into the man I wanna be"

Thanks for reading. It's good to be back.